In [every] season

My purpose in life from where I sit is a simple one. Love God. Love people. It sounds simple, but in reality it's not always that easy. It's not always easy to love God in the hard times. When you face a battle and you're ready to give up. It's not easy to even believe in God sometimes when all you know is luke warm faith. It's not easy to love people when you know they'll never love you back. It's not always easy to love people unless you love God. It's never as easy as it sounds. But somehow, somewhere, I know it's worth it. This year for myself, has been dry in faith. God has felt far away, even though I know He is not. In the last few months this is mostly(all) my fault in lacking to take the time. I always find myself saying, "I'll make time", "I'll sit down for devotions tomorrow"...when and if tomorrows comes for devotions is always an argument in my head...No matter what it comes down to though, I know I will cling to Him. I simply know. Because I know He's worth it.

A lot of my friends in school don't get it. Don't get this faith "thing". Most would call me naive or ignorant, some would call me stupid. I simply could not picture my life without this purpose in Christ. I was sitting in my social development class surrounded by my fellow classmates watching a video on the impacts of the recent recession. There was a man on screen who after the recession hit decided to go to school to study Theology. He told the interviewer that "After the recession hit, He decided to trust in God to deal with his financial debt" in other words he explained he was trusting that God would give Him the wisdom to work it out in His plan...the room immediately burst out in laughter. Trusting God. It's such a foreign concept to this world. We've missed the mark on this one. I missed the mark on this one. I need to show the people who think it's funny to trust in God..what trusting in God really looks like..But am I willing? Because when I think about what trusting in God really looks like... it can be a terrifying thought. But when I know and realize that He'll fight for me....He gives me peace. I just need to aim a lot more carefully...Live intentionally and quit missing the target.

I feel like when I sit down to write my blog I want to tackle every little thing that's gone wrong in my week or life. I don't even know why I write the things I do. But today I prayed about what should come from this blog and this is what poured out. Either way, I hope it makes sense.

This week I was listening to 'The Desert Song'- by Hillsong and I think that whenever I hear a song that can explain what my life looks like at that moment in time, I cling to it. This is a song that I'm clinging to this week. The first verse begins with....This is my prayer in the Desert when all that's within me feels dry...This is my prayer in my hunger and need...My God is the God who provides... A couple years ago I remember sitting down at a table and being asked to draw on paper which season of our spiritual lives we were in. And me at the age of 18 producing a 4 year old's looking portrait of a bitterly cold winter scene. Dry spells come and go and life may be a series of ups and downs but this song was a really strong push and reminder that God is still God, no matter where I am.

In all of my life, In every season, You are still God,
I have a reason to sing, I have a reason to worship.